I went to the mall with Michael today and we drank smoothies, looked at plugs and gauges, and talked. A lot. And the whole time I found myself comparing him to Sam and it really makes me sick how my mind thinks to do that like it's second nature now. He's like Sam in many ways. But entirely different in a lot of ways too. Being with anybody other than Sam is like moving to another country where you don't know the language. It's hard. Really hard. It feels like Sam is all I know. But I know I need to give Michael a chance. It just takes a little time, that's all. I hope.